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Typos

on April 18, 2018

I hope there is one on my tombstone to honor the struggles with editing I have endured! Ugggg.
I have taken New Hampshire Drive down for review because I have found numerous typos. I swear to you all, my fingers nor my toes are crossed. Not even my legs or arms are crossed. I swear to you, I edited this. I had 3 people edit this. WTF? And Yes I mean the “f” word very strongly!
So here I am, humiliated in public again by the imperfection in my written presentation. Maybe that’s what life is really about, how many times one can publicly humiliate oneself and still remain vertical with one’s face, your humanity bare naked to the public? To those who support me, to those I want to think highly of me, respect me, enjoy sharing my words. Ahhh, I am sorry.
Sigh.
Vulnerability. Shame. These are the words floating around my mind chatter. Vulnerability and shame are the words being shouted from the critic on my shoulder who is so capable of shouting down the calm, peaceful voice on the other shoulder who is proud of this another publication, a dream of mine for at least two decades. She is proud of the writing. Proud that she was able to successfully write humor and bring to life a really special and unique chapter in her life. She is proud of the cover and the typeface.
So here, the whole of who I am has taken New Hampshire Drive off line to return as soon as I reread it, again. Soon. Not as long as it took between versions of Joseph’s Journey or Betty Rea (still awaiting it’s most current editorial review).
I can hear your commentary. She’s done it again. Poor Susan, she just can’t get this right. Why doesn’t someone tell her? It’s like the erratic chin hair or a broccoli piece between the teeth or an open zipper no one speaks about out loud but knows the embarrassment and prays it will be rectified soon.
And oh yes, I am an English Major. Well creative writing major certainly not an editor. Maybe these technical difficulties are the result of my touch of dyslexia getting worse with age. Maybe it’s age catching up with me telling me I better get the bucket list completed before it’s too late. Maybe I just move to fast, take on too many projects. Maybe I’m just simply a lousy editor.
And, I still think the stories are good even if I somehow break down in the editing process and continue, unintentionally, to send them out imperfect. Is it a disrespect for myself and my craft?  It sure does take zap the joy out of the excitement of a new publication.  Of this I am well aware.
So, audience, forgive me, yet again. And just because it did happen again, it won’t keep me from writing. I love writing stories too much. This may force me into asking for more help or seeking another method of publication, but until then…
If you want a copy that is fixed I am so happy to replace it.
Sigh.
I listened to these TED talks again. And I will listen again and again every time I feel myself stepping onto the shame spiral.
Thank you Brene Brown for saving me from the spiral of “I’m not….” And PLEASE, Susan, figure this out.


3 responses to “Typos

  1. Sherry Dickson says:

    I am fine with my copy. It doesn’t need to be replaced. I do feel your pain. According to KERA punctuation and spelling are unimportant. It’s the voice and ideas that are important. To math teacher me, who hasn’t a creative bone in her body, I am nit picky on the mechanics. It’s hard to have both. That said, I enjoyed your book. It’s always fun to read, especially when you know the characters. I remember Felecia, though grandmother Calender spelled her name with a Ph, although there are many different spellings in different documents. (These folks didn’t even know how to spell Calendar.) I loved the story of Mary Jo’s chicken. The book brought back so many memories. Aunt Mary and I drive you up to Ashland when you moved there. Do you remember the flat tire we had before we got out of town? There are so many memories here of your homes in Ashland, though I did not know many of the people involved. I enjoyed reading it all.

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  2. yogaleigh says:

    Welcome to the club 🙂 I don’t think I’ve yet made a blog post or published anything that I didn’t find embarrassing typos in later! after proofing multiple times…

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  3. Sherry Dickson says:

    Here’s a spelling. Pallisha Calander on the 1880 Census.

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